the perks of being a wallflower

"there comes a time to stop being a wallflower and see what it looks like from the dance floor". yeah that's the first sentence which came up in my mind when i wanted to go to sleep last night and i'm thinking maybe i better share my thought with others than i keep it myself, right? so being a wallflower is not a bad idea, i mean you just sit there in the corner watching you crush or your sister or your brother dancing maybe in the homecoming party or at the prom night but there's must  be a feeling that doesn't seems right, right? i mean when you're looking at them and your head telling you to join them but your feet couldn't move and your heart beating so fast....and magically someone came to you and holding your hands and take you to the dance floor and you realized that you don't want to be the wallflower boy anymore wowwwww a touching story right. you guys should watch 'the perks of being a wallflower' it's a movie based on a novel but this film kinda make you realized what is the meaning of growing up. so it's already late and i'm very very feel sleepy so maybe see you next time




xoxo

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sometimes you better keep a secret in your mind than you tell it to people.it's just killing you and you can't stand it but you have to be tough you have to be strong. i don't know can i be strong? can i be tough? can i trough all of this after i realized i don't know what i'm doing-_- people might be say "i understand how your feeling" but the truth is they don't always understand, they just pretend to make us feeling better. sometimes it works but sometimes it failed and just make it worse.

untiteld

everyday we live our life for the better future, but one wrong step we take can ruin it. we're trying to find who we are, who i am? what am i gonna be when i grown up? we all have a dream maybe not just one dream but tons of dreams. one day we were dreaming and the next day we already make it come true. when you can do someting you like something you love, you feel really amazing right? it feels totally absolutely 100 percent amazing, it's like the best time in your life.

thanks for reading

officially graduated!!

HI HI HI HI! do you miss me? i know you all miss me. ok yesterday i'm officially gradueted from SMPN 216 jakarta. jadi gini nih ceritanya... cekidot

jam 12.00

gue dan nyokap capsus ke salon LUTUYEE. trus pas udah sampe, gue disambut oleh karyawan-karyawan LUTUYE yang cantik2 dan ganteng2. gue berjalan melewati mereka sambil menebarkan senyuman yang super indah, dan sampailah gue di kasirnya. mbaknya nanya "Selamat siang ibu ada yang bisa saya bantu?" "oh iya mbak mau cuci blow terus di style-in itu mbak" "oh itu namanya di style bu beda sama cuci blow harganya 80rb bu" "ohhhh sip sip deh mbak boleh boleh" yaudah deh gue langsung mencuci rambut. dah kan tuh nah trus tadinya rambut gue cuma mau dilurusin trus digerai gitu eh ternyata nyokap gue nyuruh orangnya dicepol modern gituu dah kan cakcesbumwer cakcesbumwer cakcesbumwer  akhirnya eksperimen rambut gue jadi dan hasilnya WEW.

jam 15.00

gue dan nyokap gue balik ke rumah, nyampe masuk kamar ngambil muke up duduk dan nyokap gue mendandani gue menjadi gue #hah #abaikan. gue nelpon taksi untuk jam 3 lewat 15 tapi datengya jam 3 so rajin taksinya. dah kan abis itu gue cabut ke auditorium perpustakaan nasional.

jam 16.00


setelah beberapa jam menembus beribu-ribu rintangan, lampu merah, 'hungry cops', akhirnya gue sampe di Perpustakaan Nasional yang terletak di jalan salemba raya no... *gak tau* di sebelahnya depsos di deketnya lawson di deketnya jalan talang ngesot dikit nyampe sekolah beta #abaikan. keluar keluar dari taxi gue disambut oleh beribu-ribu paparazzi, they're wanted to take a picture of me and my mom, whyyyy? because i'm famous!! masa seeh? iya lo gak tau gue, gak jaman bgt lo..sumfeh ane gak tau lo-_- plis deh ah gue tuh model dari ambon yang bintangin iklan susu sapi asli.....#absurd #abaikan. stelah gue bergaya di depan kamera-kamera yang bertebaran di sepan gue, gue langsung capsus masuk ke auditoriumnya.

tiktoktikoktiktoktiktoktiktok *ceritanya bunyi jam gitu ya* waktu terus berjalan seiring berjalannya waktu.... truss mulai kan acaranya, banyak anak2 yg perform *gak banyak juga sih* dah ya yg disini skip aja .
jam 18.00


jam segini anak2 pada sholat maghrib, ada yg langsung menyantap hidangan yg tersedia ada juga yg beeeeeep.  dah ah gue bingung mau ngomong apa lagi langsung ke puncak acaranya aja deh-_-. jadi siswa siswa smpn 216 disuruh duduk sama salah satu guru 216, pas kita lagi duduk2 kan bosen tuh yaudah jempol gue beserta teman-temannya 'NGEDISCO, what's that suppose to mean???? jadi jari2 kaki lo gerak gerak gitu loh kyk gerak ke depan ke belakang ke depan ke belekang gituuuu. trus tiba2 gue merasakan sesuatu yang aneh terjadi pada kaki jari2 gue yg sebelah kanan, meraka tuh terasa free bagaikan anak ayam yg baru menetas dari cangkangnya hihihihihi (wth bgt lo bet). dah kan abis itu gue mngecek keadaan 'mereka', eh ternyata dan ternyata *zoominzoomoutzoominzoomout* selopnya copot!!! coba diulangin lagi apa?!? COPOT! SELOPNYA COPOT! actually copotnya gak fulll dolllll gitu sih tapi kan super super doube triple fortle MEMALUKAN-_-"....... ckck gue dah kyk apa aja tau deh lelah gue. akhirnya dengan haru dagdigdug gue menelpon nyokap minta tolong anterin sepatu yg dia tadi pake. untung dia msh di perempatan pramuka kalo dah di rumah mau jadi apa gue masa iya gue jalan ke depan nyeker, malu-maluin bgt ntar semua mata tertuju ke gue lagi preeeeet...hmmmmm alhamdulillah nyokap dateng, you're my angel mom! love you so much! dah abis itu skip skip skip dan selesai deh acaranya!!

little bit boring right, but it's okay lah yg penting gue bisa punya kenangan-kenangan yg indah bareng RVG, bareng 216. REVOLGENT!! YOUUU ROCKKKK!

lulus!!!!

HUAAAAAAAA! gue lulus! haaaaaa! keren!!!! LULUS! *joget2 di kamar teriak dibawah bantal*

WHAAAT??? *CERITANYA PAS GUE TAU GUE LULUS GUE TERIAKNYA SEPERTI INI*

. i can't imagine it, i just past the test and graduated from my school and i'm coming baby-->SMA 68 . HUAAAAAA hey world can you hear me?!? what the hell is going on with my life? is it a miracle or is it something i deserve to get. so i still have to learn for the high scool test+_+ too bad right? but this is life. so wha?........

 i did my best and i'm proud of it

so guys, i have to say this but it's a little bit embaressing ckck. after my parents took my report book at my school of course, i feel  bad. i mean i don't know have i done my best or i haven't. that's what i'm thinking right now. i'm proud of what i've achieved but somewhere in my heart and my brain said it's not good enough. i'm really greatful with my score, i mean i'm trying and i didn't mean i'm not greatful to ALLAH's sustenence. ok, i'm really confused right now. what if i didn't get in to 68 high school. it's my dream and i want to make it come true but what if i didn't get in, i must be really upset, my world will be turn into pieces. i'm not overreacting, i'm just saying that's something might be happen if i don't get in. 


so i'm not sure what i'm feeling right now, confused or sad or angry

Teen Choice Awards 2012- Extras

Teen Choice Awards 2012- Extras

take cake

gue ingin menceritakan seseorang teman panggil saja dia bunga. let's begin the journey! ternyata eh ternyata si bunga ini suka sama.... pangil sajalah si cowok. si cowok ini tuh player, bahkan mantannya itu tak terhitung*wow**lebay-_-* banyak deh mantannya. pertama kali si bunga ngasih tau gue dia suka sama si cowok, dengan spontan gue shock.

yah kira2 muka gue seperti ini

waktu dia ngasih tau itu, si cowok masih sama pacarnya sebut saja si manis. trus pas si bunga tau mereka putus.... rasanya kyk membelah laut merah terbang bersama paus acrobatic menembus atmosfer paling manis....dan pas tau mereka balikan lagi huhuhuhuhu serasa ditusuk panah tepat di hatinya *hah lebay seklai kau nak nak*. Gila tumben banget si bunga yang tampang cewek alim nan baik nan pintar (emg anaknya baik lho jgn salah sangka dulu) suka sama cowok yg kaya si cowok. udah player tapi gue akuin emg dia kece sih tapi berandal. kalo di dibandingin sama remaja yg super berandal mungkin dia msh ditigkatan junior (emg ada istilah junior dalam hal "anak berandal"). tapi kan tumben-tumbenan si bunga suka sama orang seperti si cowok. yah mungkin emg seleranya si bunga sudah seperti itu mau diapakan lagi. tapi gue takutnya si bung di PHPin kan kesian. Dan benar apa kata gue si bunga di PHPin how pathetic bro-_-"

skenario antara cowok dengan bunga

Fakta-fakta atau sederet kejadian yg pernah menimpa si cowok dan si bunga:

1. suatu hari si cowok pernah sms ke bunga, dia nanya siapa cowok yg bunga taksirin. otomatis bunga gak ngasih tau dong secara si cowok gitu yg dia taksirin trus si cowok sms balik "........11313118 bukan?" (wkwkwk pede banget si cowok sms gitu)

2. kan si cowok anak shuffle, trus dia sering shuffle pake lagu insomnia. trus si bunga jadi suka deh k]lagu itu gara2 cowok "never thougt that i fall in love love love..... it grew from a simple crush crush crush"

3. TAKE CARE YA......

4. IYUHHH *still remember?*

5. muka si cowok itu selalu putih bersinar katanya sih pake pond's

6. si cowok pernah bilang ke wulan kalo dia minta dibantuin nembank si bunga

mungkin itu saja yang ingin gue utarakan kepada kalian semua bloggers. Semoga gue bisa masuk SMA 68 AMINN!! dan semoga si bunga bisa jadian sama si cowok hihihihi. that's all for today guys byeeeeeeee

i got a kiss for you

muahhhh